In all seriousness, the double mastectomy and reconstruction comes with some considerable risks , especially since I’ll most likely be under anesthesia for 6-8+ hours. We were able to get the whole process explained, got to feel what will be in my body, and learn some of the risk factors involved. Overall, very confident about the whole process.

Later, we met with the oncologist. This was the appointment that made this so real. It’s been a surreal experience, almost like watching a movie.

Since Mark and I are such A type researchaholics, we knew quite a bit heading in, but hearing it out loud was…whoa. I will have 8 total rounds of chemo spaced out every 2 weeks for a total of 16 weeks of time in treatment. 16 weeks…but as my wise MIL said, some things just can’t be hurried. As expected, I will lose my hair…all of it. Positives out of that is, well…being ALIVE, and no more shaving (for a while, at least)! They have a medication that they give you alongside the chemo that is a booster of sorts for my white blood cells that will hopefully help with the dips (i.e. feeling like ). My plan is to find some fun scarves, maybe a wig or 2 (hello purple hair!!!), and to attend a free seminar about taking care of your skin during treatment. We have the breast MRI and the PET Scan scheduled next week to round out the diagnostics.

Today, I had my IUD removed (don’t want to feed this tumor with any additional hormones!) and my labs done. Waiting on any additional things that need to happen today.

Still undetermined whether surgery or chemo is first. Once we know, I’ll let you know.

I’ve left out some of the more nitty gritty details.

And lastly, send some universe vibes to Mark and the girls. Mark has been so amazing. We talked to Ava last night and my first baby is such a strong girl . With Lili being so young, we are working out a way to tell her the whole story in a way she’d understand.

It’s been 7 days since diagnosis. We’ve just begun.

Your love and support is incredible. Part of why we’re handling all of this with humor and confidence and grace is because of you 

Love and light, always